Well kids, a week from today I will become Mrs. William Alexander Branning. That's a big change. I'm delving head first in the world of in-laws, holidays, 24/7 companionship, and preparing to have a strong and bumpy marriage.
I'm excited yet it's hard to focus on the goal when their are so many distractions of how everyone thinks you should do it their way, the problem is, everyone's ways are different. How can I possible make anyone happy if I'm constantly trying to please everyone?
I was reading this study about what it means to "leave you parents and cleave to your spouse". It really got me thinking, this is going to be a bumpy ride. I know that the mixture of his broken family and my broken family can either create another incredibly broken family or be overcome through the strength of Christ. I haven't even walked down the aisle yet and I already feel like I'm fighting for my marriage.
Not in a bad way, Alex and I obviously haven't had "marital" problems yet but I think that my passion and drive for having a strong healthy marriage kind of puts me on guard. I want all my "i's" dotted and my "t's" crossed. I want God to come first in my marriage. I want to feed my marriage so it will grow and blossom so that it can endure the hardships. I've been reading 5 love languages, per request from Alex. It says that we all have love tanks and if we can figure out how to keep each others love tanks full then we might not be stuck asking,"what happened to the love"?
I have a lot of thoughts on this subject and I think for me this is my version of gardening. Some people I know love to garden, they love the feeling of planting a seed and watering it and feeding it and nurturing till it grows and becomes strong and healthy. For me I feel like my marriage to Alex is this beautiful baby plant that needs lots of love, attention and nurturing. I'm completely prepared to do what it takes, to make sure that my marriage is properly fed.
There is a lot of skepticism in this world, a lot of negativity, even among our family and friends. This can easily plant seeds of destruction into such a young relationship but I believe strongly that God has a purpose for us and that is much more important to me than anything else. I will not give up. I am here for the long run. If I go on I'm gonna start sounding like a Vanessa Williams song.;)
I will finish with this.
"And so we know and rely on the love God has for us. God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in him. In this way, love is made complete among us so that we will have confidence on the day of judgment, because in this world we are like him. There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love. We love because he first loved us."~1 John 4:16-19
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